So blessed 11.24.14

Finding out your friend, who's not much older then you, had a stroke makes you realize that the body is complicated and fragile.
While she had a stroke, I am going into shock. Thankfully she is doing well, and improving as she learns to walk, and move, and function again.
It scares me to think she's in better health then me,  and here she had a stroke.
I am a diabetic with high blood sugars because I don't think about what I put into my body. I put no effort into taking care of me, because honestly it's too much work.
What poor self-esteem,  no self worth.  No wonder I'm depressed.  And the discomfort I feel in my own body gives me anxiety to face the world outside my home.
This has got to stop! I have been given a precise gift, and I have to fight to keep it.